I am going to watch Angel the Series 1x08 I Will Remember You and sob shamelessly
DO NOT READ IF YOU HAVE NOT SEEN SEASON 3 EPISODE 4
Ok so I know I’ve been posting lots of Buffy posts but I have feels about this show so don’t mind me! :P
So Angel’s back - I still don’t know why Buffy HAD to push him in the vortex. I don’t know what about the ring made him come back. I figure I’ll get an explanation sooner or later…
But I just - he was all feral and then Buffy chained him up and he got out, and she was fighting that guy, Pete, the abusive boyfriend who was taking that potion or what not… and then Angel bursts in and fights him, kills him and then just goes to Buffy and he struggles to speak but then says her name, and then just drops to his knees and holds her legs and they both cry and I JUST CANNOT CONTAIN THESE FEELS HELP
The fact that the first word he said after spending centuries on a hell dimention is her name.
Do you ever cry because….
When Buffy was still in high school, she was young, full of life and dreams. Being a Slayer didn’t stop her from having hope for a better life. Like any other normal girl, she thought about what her future would be like and when she did : all she could see - all she wanted - was Angel.
But then she grew up. The man she loved left her, her mother died, she died, she was ripped from heaven and she became the leader of an army…. That Buffy knew that the Slayer wasn’t meant to live a long and peaceful life. A Slayer was meant to suffer, she was meant to fight until she couldn’t anymore. She finally understood what the First Slayer tried to tell her : “Death is your gift”. Because only in death will she ever be able to feel peace. So she stopped thinking about a future, she stopped hoping for a future she will never be able to have anyway.
But there were moments, few moments, where she did let herself think about a possible future she could have, one day. Where she let herself hope. And even after all these years, she still sees Angel.
“Angel, when I look into the future, all I see is you. All I want is you.”
"Angel. I do. Sometimes… think that far ahead. We both have our lives, but…sometimes… It’d be a long time. Years, if ever"